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Transitions

Today is officially the longest day of the year, the start of summer…and it’s 60 degrees, grey and scattered rain showers. Last Friday was nearly 80 and sunny and glorious – go figure.

At the beginning of next month, my new boss officially starts in the office. My boss of the last 15 years is retiring, but not officially until the beginning of August. So it’s a new season starting in our office as well.

It’s been 10 months since my back surgery, and I’m in the midst of my beginning of summer annual medical checkups. Made all the appointments, showed up for my mammogram last week. Next week is fasting blood work, and then my physical the following week. I feel good and have no great concerns to discuss with my primary care doctor, so hopefully this will be a smooth slide into the summer without more tests and appointments to think about.

How’s my back? Well, “good” or “better” are the easy answers. It’s different than before surgery obviously, since I have hardware holding me together, but it’s also been a long recovery process (well documented here on the blog). Today I don’t have chronic low back pain. I don’t have constant sciatic and muscle cramping in my back, hip, butt, or thigh. I don’t have the constant ache, and grabbing my low back when I twist or move funny. I don’t have to take over the counter or prescription medications to allow me to get through a day or night. I don’t have to have my heating pad waiting on the couch for me to come and sit for a few minutes and ease my muscles out of a cramp. But I’ve worked my butt off in physical therapy to both recover from the trauma of the surgery I had, but also to strengthen the muscles I haven’t used for years to support my spine. It’s an ongoing process of listening to my body while also pushing myself to improve.

I still have some lingering nerve issues, and recognize that I probably always will to some extent. Some of it is damage done before the surgery from my spine being unstable and pinching the nerves (sciatic)- some surface numbness on my right leg in several places that was present before the surgery….is still there. But the cramping that was an everyday thing before surgery is gone on the right side. Some of it is also from the surgery itself – I had a lot of sciatic cramping on the left side after surgery (I whined about it for weeks), and while the cramping has resolved – I still have some residual nerve pain in the top of my left foot. I whined about that quite a bit and worked on it during physical therapy – and while it’s vastly improved – it’s still there. But I’ll take a little bit of surface numbness and a touchy left foot over debilitating daily pain and muscle cramps any day!

I no longer have to get up 20 minutes early just to go through a series of stretches to wake up my muscles. I still do a series of range of motion stretches each morning just to get the blood flowing a little before my shower – and work off the sleep haze – but it’s not 3 sets of 10 repetitions of this one exercise, and then 3×10 of the next one, etc. During the week, I do yoga on my lunch break – specifically targeting my core strength, my hips, glutes, and hamstrings, and actually working on my upper body strength too. I have several dynamic flows that I work through to strengthen my body overall – not just focus on spine surgery rehab. Throughout the week I still end up doing all the same kinds of exercises that my PT taught me to do, and I’m seeing great progress in my strength.

I have tried and tried to like the exercise bike I bought (used) last year for cardio – but I just don’t. It caused me more body mechanic issues throughout my recovery because it’s basically just one movement in the same position over and over again – primarily focused on my hips and IT band. So I stopped using it at the suggestion of my PT when my IT band kept flaring. Instead I walk as much as I can. On the weekends I walk in the morning before a shower. During the week, I make it a point to get up and walk at work as often as I can…and then walk in the evening when I get home. Walking was the thing my surgeon had me doing immediately after surgery – like the same day….with a walker and a catheter in…I was walking the hallways every couple of hours. On day 2 they took the catheter out and I had to get up to use the bathroom….and walk the hallways every couple of hours. I have continued that pattern throughout my recovery. During my PT, I would start out on the treadmill for 10 minutes before seeing my PT for the rest of my appointment. As my rehab continued, I came to love my time on the treadmill, and as weather permitted I walked my driveway at home too. When I was allowed back on my exercise bike, and started having trouble with my IT band, I started thinking about selling the exercise bike and getting a treadmill. That’s still a discussion at our house – but I haven’t been on the bike for months now….and my IT band hasn’t flared in the least.

In January I made a concerted effort to start eating better, and tracking my food each day. I haven’t been perfect, but I’ve been much more aware. I’m down about 14 pounds, and the yoga has helped me trim off over 6 inches overall. I’ve been able to recognize what foods I can eat and continue to lose weight slowly – and I know what foods stall me out completely. My goal isn’t a number on a scale or a clothing tag – my goal is a healthy mind and body combined. My current routine is getting me closer and closer to that point.

The final transition I’ll talk about today is menopause. Last year about this time, my doctor confirmed/agreed with me that I was likely peri-menopausal based on what I had been noticing in the preceding year. Menopause is a tricky thing to nail down in women like me with MRKH. Most women experience a change in their monthly menstrual cycle – and they notice the change because their pattern of bleeding (their period) changes. But I don’t have the benefit of being able to track differences in menstrual flow. Over the years I came to recognize subtle changes in my body during certain times of the month…and asking very pointed questions of my close girlfriends. I learned to notice not just pre-menstrual symptoms of emotional changes, bloating, tender breasts, and acne breakouts, but also the more subtle changes that came with ovulation. I actually had a pretty regular cycle that once I understood what I was experiencing, I could work to manage a little more effectively. But without the “period” to mark the date on the calendar, and obviously no worries of an unplanned pregnancy ever – it was just interesting to note what my body was doing. In the last 2 years I began being more aware of the fact that my “pms” symptoms were happening less frequently, and not near the end of the month as they used to be. Add in a whole lot of tossing off covers in the middle of the night, and some changes with vaginal moisture and elasticity – and my doctor marked my chart as peri-menopausal. We had a brief discussion last year about hormone replacement and options available – but I declined any formal treatment. I had a baseline bone density test last year which was totally normal, and I read a couple of hand-me-down books on menopause. Knowing this is a natural progression, and understanding that everyone’s experience varies greatly, I’ve opted to be preventative, but minimalist in my journey. I’ve added a women’s multi vitamin, vitamin E, and collagen for joint health, and made sure that I am eating a balanced diet that includes lots of variety in both vegetables and proteins, and a moderate amount of (mostly) whole grains. Thus far I have not been overly bothered by crazy mood swings, hot flashes, excess fatigue, thinning hair (it gets grayer each year, but it’s still thick and crazy curls), and I’m still able to effectively manage my weight. All in all…I think I’m doing just fine on this journey.

As I think about all the transitions going on with and around me lately, I try and remember to just put my trust in God. He has a plan, and my part in this plan requires me to act with compassion and humility, to trust Him completely, and to practice patience with His timing.

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6 Months Post Spinal Fusion

It hardly seems possible that it’s really been 6 months since my surgery, but I can’t deny the truth of the calendar. I’ve gone from the heat of summer, to a beautiful fall of color, to the depths of a snow packed winter. I’ve gone from walking with a walker, to a cane, to slow but deliberate walking, to the ability to walk as much as I want. I’ve gone from no lifting, bending, twisting, through a slow and steady recovery, to being able to lift what I need, bend forward and touch my toes, and gentle twists in my upper body. I’ve learned how to protect my back muscles and keep my spine stable. I’ve learned to kneel and squat down instead of bending at the waist to reach things on the floor. I’ve strengthened my hips and legs, and I’ve worked to strengthen my core muscles, the big and little ones, and I’ve worked to strengthen and stretch my back muscles and the muscles in my legs and hips. It’s been a huge recovery process, but I feel good with my process and what I can do now.

This past week I had a visit with my surgeon. New x-rays show my fusion is growing stronger, and all the rods and screws and cages are doing their job. He is pleased with my progress, and the strength and flexibility I’ve gained. He commented that it looked like I’d dropped a few pounds (yes, validation!), and that it looked like I was more comfortable. I agreed with him, and asked him about continuing restrictions. For the past 6 months I’ve been to avoid using a heating pad, and no use of NSAIDS. I’m cleared to use them now if i feel the need. I’m cleared to lift safely and smartly. We talked about craft shows, and that I am to be careful and not lifting while bending or twisting, and to keep my boxes packed on the light side. I’m allowed to walk, jog if I want (not likely), ride a bike, swim (also not likely), and do as much yoga as I like so long as I’m careful during twisting poses and don’t ask too much of my body. I’m to be careful and extra cautious in the snow and ice – NO FALLING. The fusion itself will continue to heal for the next year, but I’m right on track. His parting words to me were, “Call me if something comes up, but you MUST DO YOUR EXERCISES EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.” Alrighty then, message delivered doc!

The next day was my appointment with Brenda, my physical therapist. She put me through the paces and did some massage on my whole back (I was a little extra stiff apparently). She talked about challenging my strength and using some resistance along with more repetitions. She sent me home with some bands to use. She agrees with the doc’s assessment to keep doing what I’m doing, and keep adding strength challenges. She talked a lot about being aware of my body mechanics, and listening as my muscles gain strength. When you get stiff or sore, take the time to rest and stretch things out before doing more. When you feel like you need to sit and rest, do so. When you feel like you need to get up and move, do so. When your muscles get tight, use your massage stick and tennis ball to release the tension. And you MUST DO YOUR EXERCISES EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

So apparently, I keep moving along and doing my exercises for the rest of my life. I knew going into this surgery that as important as what happened that day in the operating room was, that my recovery and rehab would be even more important, and a life long commitment.

My food tracking app tells me that I’ve been tracking food and eating cleanly for 47 days now. I’ve also been riding my exercise bike regularly, and working hard on my PT exercises and doing yoga a few times a week. I feel like I’m in a healthy mindset, and the doc was right, I have lost weight since the first of the year. I’m not dieting per say, but I’m also not eating crap. I’m monitoring my calories each day, and avoiding eating grains and starches, and avoiding sweets and overly processed food. I don’t feel deprived, and I’ve been enjoying looking for and trying new recipes. We have been eating a lot more fresh produce, and I know I’m feeling much better in general – I have more energy and am sleeping better too.

If you aren’t in the Pacific North West, let me share that we have been given our entire dose of winter…in a couple week’s time. It just keeps snowing…many inches in the cities, a lot of wind, and out in the hinterlands where I live – we are measuring the snow in FEET. There have been school closures, road closures, and when you do get out and about, the roads have been a mixed bag of snow covered, slush covered, clear, and drifts. Don’t get me wrong, it’s beautiful…but I’m tired of it. The closed the university for a day last week, and we had late start another day…and those things hardly ever happen. It’s been several years since the last time it happened.

Last weekend the snow created all kinds of havoc. Wind gusted snow across the roads creating white out conditions, and drifts accumulating in the roads. It just wasn’t safe to travel out of the cities. After a series of messages between our pastor, the elders in the church, and myself, and a bit of prayer – I was asked to not only lead our service because our pastor couldn’t make it down, but also to deliver the sermon. I’ve had to do this before due to weather, but she wrote the sermon, and I just read it. This time, she and I spoke at length, and her sermon wasn’t a good fit for me to deliver. God has been pushing me recently to step out of my comfort zone more and more. So I spoke to my pastor about a sermon idea I had. She approved of the direction I was being led, and I sat down Saturday evening using a sermon outline another pastor had written, I wrote a sermon on the Power of Prayer. I used my lovely new bible to find appropriate scripture references, and listened to my heart as I was writing. I sent it to my pastor to look at, and for any last minute changes, and I went to bed.

Sunday morning I got up and ready for church, printed the bulletin that Pastor E had sent me, read her words of encouragement, and printed my sermon notes. My little country church congregation was lovely and supportive as I not only lead our service, but delivered my first official sermon. I went ahead and recorded it with my phone, to send to pastor, and a few close friends. After prayerfully considering my options, and the motivations behind them, I’ve decided to share it with you as well. May my words truly bless you.

Power of Prayer

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A Graceful Rehabilitation

I’ve been thinking I need to give an update, let you all know how the rehab is progressing. The change of physical therapist has been good. I’ve been able to switch things up and make some real progress. I’ve seen Brenda 3 times now, and have been doing my home exercises and when I see her each week she works on something else.

The first week was that darn IT band and trigger point massage in my hip and glute, and using my roller massage stick on my hamstring and the IT band itself. The incredible tenderness has diminished, and the tension has released significantly. I continue with stretches and work to build balanced strength. It’s clear it’s all working, as my SI joint is much more stable, my pelvis aligned, and the IT band isn’t holding so much tension.

The second week, she worked the soft tissue in my hip and then put me through the paces on the Pilates Reformer – doing a lot of core work and leg work. More stretching and a reminder to keep the rest of my spine above the fusion mobile. While we want good stability around the fusion, we want strength and mobility in the rest of my spine.

This week when I saw her, I asked her to help me trouble shoot the left foot nerve pain. We went through what I have been doing at home, the stretching and “neural flossing” and she did a body mechanics assessment. She had me make some small changes to the way I had been doing the neural flossing, and focus on a couple different ways to stretch and work my ankle and foot. With some soft tissue work – more trigger point massage- in my calf and ankle area she helped release some tension, which should help that nerve to glide more freely. I’ve had to do some home massage and really work at the hot spots – so as it heals from the massage work, the hope is that the nerve will glide smoothly and that annoying nerve pain will diminish. Again I’m in a work it hard for a couple days, and let it rest and heal a day or two and then go back after it for a couple days. Hopefully soon I’ll see some progress.

I feel like I’m at a point finally where I’m really ready to go at this rehab and recovery thing on my own. I’m glad I’ve pushed to continue with the physical therapy past the initial 6 week protocol. I’ve needed to work through problems that have developed as I’ve healed – the SI joint, the IT band, the nerve in my left foot – all the while continuing to retrain muscles to support my spine. I’ve been careful, but I’ve also pushed myself in rehab. I didn’t want to just heal the incision and let the bone heal – I wanted to really rehab my body to get back to a place of strength and stability that I haven’t had in several years. I wanted a new lease on life, so working on healing and rebuilding strength has been important to me – a full recovery. I’m so thankful that I have good insurance and the ability to take the time to recover that I’ve needed.

I see my surgeon again in February – almost exactly 6 months from my surgery. That’s about when my physical therapy “prescription” runs out again. I feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, like my recovery and rehabilitation has been a success, and that I will back to myself and my “pre-fusion” activities soon.

I’m looking at spring and summer craft fair dates, and feeling like I am physically able to do the work of setting up and tearing down shows. I need to spend some time making soap in preparation for that – and I feel like I’m physically able to do that too. I have to admit, there was a time when I was wondering if I would be able to get back to the soap biz – so it’s a very good thing that I’m feeling like all my hard work in rehab has been worth it!

I’ve been consistent for over 3 weeks with clean eating and exercise. I’ve been taking my vitamins and supplements every day and doing everything I can to fuel my body well. And I’ve been giving myself grace to just live a little too. I have found the balance that has been lacking for a while in my life.

Oh yeah…and it was recently my baptiversary – so I treated myself to a new bible and bible cover. With my focus on women’s ministry I have been doing a lot of bible study on women in general, and leading our local Ladies Night In ministry – so I wanted a bible that would help me do that. One of my favorite blogs put out a devotional bible recently, and so I treated myself to one. It’s visually a beautiful bible, but it’s also chocked full of reading plans, devotionals, and highlights over 50 women of courage. I’ve really enjoyed skimming through it and prayerfully considering which reading plan I wanted to start with. As usual, God had a plan and led me right where He wanted me to be.