I’ve been contemplating this post for a while. Well, honestly, several posts – but I haven’t been sure of the direction I wanted to take. Often this blog acts as a journal for me, allowing me to share and process my thoughts. Sometimes it serves to address a particular topic or event. Often it’s completely random.
In my life, and probably in yours too, things happen and our focus shifts a bit. Sometimes it’s a quick detour, and sometimes it’s quite the journey before we realize that we strayed far from what out target was. I’m kind of in that place – in another cycle of living my life where it really doesn’t look a whole lot like what I imagined a few years ago. Crazy how that works sometimes…but work it does.
Over the course of my life I’ve gone through counseling several different times, in order to help me “deal with stuff”. The stuff is the variable here. And the type of counseling I’ve done has varied too. But pretty much you go to a stranger, you begin to build trust, and that stranger becomes a trusted confidant. And then you start to dig through the layers of “stuff” that is holding you back in your current season of life – hopefully with the goal of dealing with it and getting back to a level of normal you set. Been there, done that. I’ve worked through issues of abuse. I’ve worked through financial ick. I’ve worked through grief. I’ve worked through issues of weight and body image. I’ve worked through infertility. I’ve worked through failed relationships. I’ve grown, and I’ve healed. I’ve changed. And for the most part, it’s all been for the greater good. Sure there has been some pain – some regrets – some things I can’t take back no matter how badly I’d like to. But it’s all been my life.
In the past few months I’ve done a lot of personal reflection, and made some changes and choices that have effected more change. It’s been quite the process. I honestly believe that change and growth is a good thing. We need to challenge ourselves, take calculated risks, and take action. And sometimes that is a complete upheaval – a major change…and sometimes it’s a just a small shift that has the potential for gigantic ripple effects. A shift in my life and my priorities has precipitated ripples in so many other aspects of my life I wasn’t expecting.
I took a stand in my heart and mind that shifted my focus to my faith in God, and my place in this world as a Christian woman. Openly doing so, has opened the door to so much more, and has guided other choices and has given me a sense of peace that had been lacking for many years. It released burdens, and opened my heart to alternatives. It gave me direction and purpose that was focused on others and not on myself. It has brought up some questions too, of course. All changes come with challenges, and I’ve tried to embrace them all.
Most of you know of my Courageous Project with the Beautiful You MRKH Foundation. I love this with my whole heart. I love that through the medium of soapmaking I can make a tangible difference for women like myself who have MRKH. I love that I can donate money to an organization that was instrumental in my personal growth, and that I can continue to touch lives. Over the last few months, sales have dropped off considerably, and I take responsibility for that. I haven’t spent much time or energy promoting it. But in the greater picture – I haven’t done much at all in my soap business as a whole- I skipped a couple of craft shows this summer to allow me time to focus on family and other obligations. That will be changing soon, as the fall craft show season is starting up in a couple of weeks!
One of my “other obligations” this summer was attending the Seattle MRKH conference. What an incredible weekend, with some lovely women. I will be posting about that weekend here on the blog soon – much of the content is already written actually. So stay tuned for that.
This summer I also worked with some of those same lovely women and together we created a Christian support group on Facebook called MRKH Journey through Faith. I felt the need to form a community of women who shared both Christ and MRKH…and where we could encourage each other to grow in our Faith and to work toward healing the wound that MRKH often is in our lives. We have continued to grow and add members, and it’s been a wonderful way to connect on a deeper level with each other.
I’ve had some other big things in my life this summer, big changes, new opportunities, and tons of personal growth. I hope to share more with you over the next few months some of these directions my life is headed.
Have a blessed day!!!